my mentality has always been, if i put in enough effort, people will know and reciprocate. apparently, this strong ideology of mine is not exactly correct. 

doing too much can result in unexpected consequences. i wonder how does this work then? relationships are not exactly the easiest thing to work on, but neither the toughest to crack open. the very first time i sat down there, keeping all quiet and only to listen to all the things i have done, i could feel my heart tearing apart, my tears welling up.

i do things, to make people feel needed. and having to say that, i want to feel the same way too. 

have i expected too much from the start?